You Were Never Really Here Novels & Stories

Hindi dahil sa kalaban. Kung hindi—dahil sa kanya. Unti-unting umatras ang council. Pero hindi iyon tapos. Hindi iyon panalo. Reposition lang. Alam ko. Nararamdaman ko. “Hindi pa tapos,” bulong ko. “Never is,” sagot niya. Tahimik sandali. Hanggang sa tuluyan silang mawala. Iniwan ang wasak na hallway. Ang dugo.

Mas lalo lang akong nasaktan ng mapansin ang sakit sa mahinang tawang iyon. "Then I realized, person didn't miss someone who they were never with. Someone who never part of their heart" umangat ako ng tinggin at napansing pilit niyang tinatago ang mga luhang nagbabadyang bumagsak mula sa mga mata niya.. "and that's me..maybe I became part of your life, but never your heart" "Zian" Hindi ko na mapigilang maiyak dahil sa sitwasyon naming to...Fvck Yanna, your hurting him. A very nice person, Friend of yours!

I was hurt too much. Lumayo na nga ako sa bahay eh. Tapos susunod ulit ang problema. Di ko gusto yung dini-deny ako ng taong malapit o kadugo ko. ‘Blood is thicker than water’ ika nga ng karamihan. But how blood still thick when your own blood and flesh denied you like they doesn't know who you are. Like you didn't exist in front of them. Like they didn't deserve who you are.

It hurts like hell. Now you're gone, what am I gonna do So empty My heart, my soul can't go on Go on, baby, without you But I need to move on, I can't kill you. So I just need to forget you. My rainy days fade away when you come around please tell me baby Why you go so far away Why you go Oh, love Never knew what I was missing But I knew once we start kissin' I found, love Never knew what I was missing But I knew once we start kissin'

In your eyes, nose, lips The way she used to touch my skin Your head down to your toes. It's like you're standing right in front of me now, Though the light's gone darker now, You've just gone way too far, I'll keep you in my heart… Though it kills me to say it now, I'll never get over you.

Gustong-gusto niya itong sakalin hanggang sa mawalan ito ng hininga! "No one's coming back. Mark my word!" She heard him chuckled. "You cannot run away from me. You cannot run away from who you are. Wherever you go, wherever you hide, you cannot run away from your past. Never." Kumuyom ang kamao niya. Damn it. Damn it!

Pilit kung hinalukay ang huling naaalala ko. Naging bihag ako at nasa loob ng isang laboratoryo at tumurok sa akin ang apat na mahahabang mga karayum na hanggang ngayon ay naaalala ko pa kung gaano iyon kasakit. Pero hanggang doon lang ang naaalala ko. Siguro hinimatay ako dahil sa sakit? Kaya ganito kabigat ang pakiramdam ko ngayon. "Raven, you can never escape."

"Damn it." It was as if I was going back to the past, the past I was running into and trying to forget. But when did I succeed? No. I can’t because it’s the one coming back and keeps chasing me. It was like a ferocious lion who did nothing but chase it's food. It won’t stop until he gets me and as long as I don’t give up. I sighed loudly, I gave up. I'm already a loser but why don't they still stop me? Why can't I just disappear from the world? It would be erased as if it were a wrong decision to raise me in the world.

“Ang kasal ay hindi panakip-butas. Hindi siya band-aid para sa kasalanan. At lalong hindi siya gamot sa guilt.” Napayuko siya. “I know. And now I’m trapped in something I never wanted while the person I truly loved disappeared.” Sumikip ang dibdib ko sa salitang disappeared. “At nasaan ako ron?” tanong ko, halos pabulong. “Ano ako sa lahat ng ito, Darren? Isa lang ba akong maling desisyon din?” Agad siyang napatingin sa akin. “No. You’re not a mistake.”

Natatawang bulong ko sa aking sarili, pero siyempre, sinigurado kong hindi niya iyon maririnig dahil mahirap na, baka masisante ako nang wala sa oras. ----- To be continued.