Romans & histoires What Is Your Biggest Fear

masayang tanong ko. "I hate how your eyes shine when you hear his name," nagtatampo niyang sabi. Umirap naman ako dahil sa sinabi niya. "Saan ka ba pupunta mamaya? Ayaw mo ba ko isama?" "I want to, but I don't think you should. It's safer for you to stay at home." "Okay," maikling sagot ko. "May tanong ako." "What's that?" Muli akong bumalik sa pagkakahiga sa lap niya at saka humarap sa television. "Anong biggest fear ni Blaze?"

Hindi man halata ay natutuwa akong may nakakaintindi sa akin kahit papaano. I was always afraid to talk. I'm always having panic attacks when someone always tried to talk to me. I have fear of words, I don't like having verbal communication with others. I'm used to being silent. I don't like talking. At mas gusto ko pa na nag-iisa ako kaysa ang may mga kasama. But now, with them, I mean with them understanding my condition, I don't think I will still have a fear of words. I hope so.

Kahit pa pareho ang namulatan ay hindi ko pa rin nakalimutang ngumiti. "I'm hoping na magkaroon na ng donor ang mata ko," saad ko dito. "Are you afraid?" he asked now in low tone. Sa totoo lang ay marami akong kinakatakutan. Afraid of living in dark side forever, afraid of being alone and left by anyone. Pero sa tingin ko dumating na ang kinatatakutan ko noong mamatay si Daddy. "Wala... wala akong kinatatakutan," I response.

He tends to wipe away my fears with just one kiss. “It will come baby! Let’s just trust our love!” bulong niya pa bago niya sakupin ang mga labi ko I answered his sweet kisses at sapat na iyon para mawala ang takot na bumabalot sa akin. Living my life without him is my greatest fear. I moaned his name ng haplusin ni Xavier ang mga dibdib ko. Even if I still have my clothes on, Xavier’s touch can burn me like hell.

Since FEAR has strong connections to government agencies and military personnel, it has a strong possibility that Archibald is backed up by them, kaya malakas ang loob niyang kalabanin ang Westside. FEAR, a military agency that solves complex and violent enemies the normal police cannot handle, mostly supernatural ones. Kagaya sa Westside Dragons, karamihan ng miyembro nito ay mga talisman users. Malaking organisasyon ang FEAR, marami silang koneksyon sa malalaking organisasyon sa labas at loob ng bansa. I hate to admit it, pero sila ang grupong kayang tapatan ang Westside. The two groups have been clashing for so many years, pero hanggang ngayon, wala pa ring nakadadaig sa bawat isa.

Masaya naman ang nightlife, pero hindi talaga ako sanay sa maingay at mataong lugar. We also did some water sports. Not the extreme ones. Ngayon lang nagyaya si Josh. He wanted me to face my fears, especially crophobia-- an intense fright of height. Nasabi ko sa kanya na ayoko nang mga laro o libangan na may kinalaman sa matataas na lugar. But here we are now, forcing me to go along with him. "Ready?"

panimula nito. Kaagad siyang nakaramdam ng guilt dahil sa sinambit nito, "I'm sorry," puno ng sinseridad na paghingi niya ng paumanhin dito. Hindi niya ito masisi dahil maging siya ay nakaramdam ng takot sa nangyari sa kaniya kagabi. "One of my biggest fear is losing you, and seeing you like that harmed and full of bruises makes me think that I am the worthless person alive. Because I can't protect you and keep you unscathed."

He's so cute. "No, you're not weird as you think, feeling scared to love someone is completely normal. It's a sign that you're human, that you've been through life's ups and downs, and that you're cautious about who you let into your heart. But don't let the fear hold you back. Sometimes, the most beautiful things in life come from taking risks and opening yourself up to love, despite the uncertainty."

Histeric na sabi niya. I caught Uno intensely looking at me while his forehead was slightly creased. I automatically averted my eyes when I remembered what happened in the test. It's still vivid. Sa dinami-dami ba naman ng lalaking makikita doon—bakit si Uno pa? Pwede naman si tres nalang! I am more comfortable with tres! What was that fear called? Intimacy? A fear of intimacy? I never imagined myself doing that to someone, especially Uno!

"Even if it costs my life, Pristine Felize. I will do everything to keep you safe." Suddenly, his vow echoed in my mind, and a deeper fear settled in my chest. Napahikbi ako at napailing, habang ramdam ko ang mga tingin nilang lahat sa akin—ang awa. Intense fear was crushing me, gripping my heart so tight I could barely breathe... Bukod sa papa, a-ang pinaka hindi ko kayang mawala sa akin a-ay si Elijah. "N-No."