Romans & histoires This Is Where I Leave You

"Okay. I will never leave you..." -AndyThoughts-

Once concealed, it shall not stray, For whom it binds, it finds its way. TO BE CONTINUE

Nagpatuloy ako sa pagkanta at kahit na umiiyak ako, sinikap ko pa ring matapos ang buong kanta because I know after singing this song, I will feel better. "Dude, okay na ako. Thank you for not leaving my side. Kailanman, hindi ka maaaring palitan dito sa puso ko. It's not goodbye dude, 'til I see you again, 'til we see each other again", madamdamin kong sabi, habang pinapahid ang luha sa aking mga mata. Pagkatapos nu'n, lumipad na ang malaking paru-paro at nagpakalayo-layo, until it blurred my vision.

Parang naging blanko ang lahat at parang nabutas ang puso ko. Sammuel... Why did you have to leave me? Pwede namang ayosin natin ito? Bakit kailangan mo pang umalis? Parang pagalingin ang sarili mo mula sa sugat ng mga kahapon? Sa mga masasakit na nangyari? Para patigilin sa pagdudurugo ang puso mo? Pero paano naman ako? Paano naman akong nahihirapang makalimutan ka? Paano naman akong dinurog mo nang pinu-pino?

puno ng determinasyon na sabi ko at tiningnan lang niya ako saka nagkibit-balikat. "Well knowing my son sooner or later he will get tired of you like what always happens. You're not the kind of girl who will tie him down. Maybe now he makes you feel special but he will eventually leave you like he always does. Actually I'm just doing you a favor it's either you leave him now with everything i'm offering you or left with nothing," sabi niya at huminga ako ng malalim.

Cause you’ll only need the light when it’s burning low Only miss the sun when it starts to snow Only know you love her when you let her go Only know you’ve been high when your feeling low Only hate the road when your missing home Only know you love her when you let her go And you let her go… Mahal na ba niya noon pa si Kate?

Muling sumabog ang sigaw ni Nevaeh sa kanyang alaala. Mariin niyang hinawakan noon ang payat at malamig na kamay ng kanyang ama habang umiiyak nang desperado. “Daddy, ayoko kang mawala! Mommy is already gone. Are you leaving me too?” Humagulgol siya habang paulit-ulit na umiiling. “Please, Daddy... don't leave me. Please...” Ngunit hanggang ngayon, ramdam pa rin niya ang sandaling iyon.

Bawat himig at bawat linya, parang tinutusok ang sugat na matagal ko nang pilit tinatakpan. There are nights when I can't help but cry And I wonder why you had to leave me Why did it have to end so soon? When you said that you would never leave me Tell me where did I go wrong What did I do to make you change your mind completely? When I thought this love would never end But if this love's not ours to have I'll let it go with your goodbye…

I love you, goodbye I hope someday you can Find some way to understand I'm only doing this for you I don't really wanna go But deep in my heart, I know This is the kindest thing to do You need someone Who'll be the one that I could never be Who'll give you something better Than the love you'll find with me Oh, I could say that I'll be all you need But that would be a crime I know I'd only hurt you, I know I'd only make you cry I'm not the one you're needing I love you goodbye Leaving someone when you love someone is the hardest thing to do When you love someone as much as I love you Oh, I don't wanna leave you Baby, it tears me up inside But I'll never be the one you're needing I love you go

Hindi ko mapigilang mapaiyak nang mabasa ko iyon. Kasalanan ko! Kasalanan ko! She left me... It's my fault... ****