روايات وقصص ضمن It's My Fault

Bumubuhos ang luha kong hindi malaman kung paano patitigilin. Sa bigat ng nararamdaman ko tila sasabog na ang dibdib ko. "I'm s-sorry. It's all my fault.. It's my fault.." "Ssshhh.. Hindi mo kasalanan.. Wag mong sabihin yan.." Kumawala ako sa pagkakayakap niyang napunta sa mukha ko ang mga palad niya. Nagtama ang mga mata naming namumula, namumugto sa kakaiyak.

"Pero kung naging maingat lang ako—" "No," mariing pagtanggi niya. "If anyone is to blame here, it's me. I'm the one who dragged you into this situation. I was the one who wasn't careful. I know what kind of family I have, I know how they operate, and I know how dangerous the world I live in is for someone like you. Yet, I still forced it. So don't ever say this is your fault, Anya. I don't blame you, and I never will."

Dahil din sa ginawa kong iyon ay hindi nila nasamahan si Milan sa pagbabagong naganap sa buhay nito at napilitan itong mamuhay ng mag-isa, na hindi naman sana niya dinanas. If only I had the courage to just let go of her. “But I can’t also blame you, dude.” Tinapik ni Dashiel ang balikat ko. “What happened is not your fault. You are also the victim of the situation. The only mistake that you did is you didn’t tell Milan about that issue.” Bumuntong hininga ako. “Yeah. Iyan nga ang pinagsisihan ko.”

Agad naman ako tumalikod at doon ko na binuhos ang lahat ng sama ng loob ko sa loob ng sasakyan. I was in the darknest, so darknest I became. I don't blame anyone. I did this to myself. It's my fault. Everything is my fault.

Hindi ko mapigilang mapaiyak nang mabasa ko iyon. Kasalanan ko! Kasalanan ko! She left me... It's my fault... ****

Ito siguro ang kaniyang tinutukoy sa tanong niya noong nakaraang araw. "It's not your fault, Mel. Don't blame yourself for some things you didn't wish to happen. May mga bagay lang talaga na hindi natin nakokontrol at kusa nalang nangyayari. Because they are bound to happen kahit anong pigil natin...Tahan ka na, okay?" Pag-aalo ko pa sa kaniya.

Umiiyak niyang sagot sa ina,pero umiling lang din ito at hinawakan ang kanyang kamay na nasa pisngi nito. “ No,it’s my fault. I’m so sorry baby,I should have known. I should have,I’m sorry I neglect you. I’m so sorry my baby,I’m sorry.”

At talagang hinintay ko pa na si Jyn mismo ang lumapit sa akin at ma-corner ako ng ganito. Bumuntong hininga ako. “Like what I said, Cee, whatever is happening is not your fault. It is all on me so please, don’t feel like that, okay.” Hinawakan ko ang kamay niya just to give him some assurance that it is not his fault. “I am the one with some issues to myself.” “Then…”

I'm really useless. It was my fault. Everything. I lost my grandfather then trust someone unworthy of trust. Everything was really my fault. Lahat nang hindi magandang nangyari sa nakaraan. Pakiramdam ko'y kailangan kong tanggapin ang lahat nang iyon at ibaon sa akinh d****b dahil sa tingin ko'y responsibilidad ko ang lahat nang iyon. Then, I trusted someone unworthy again at dahil sa pagtitiwala ko sa kanila, I lost my best friend.

madiin niyang sagot. Parang may kung anong sumabog sa dibdib ko. So it’s my fault now? Lumabas din ang totoo. “Wow.” natawa ako nang pagak. “So, dahil naapakan ang ego mo, bigla nang mali ang ginawa ko? Why don’t you look at yourself first? How did this suddenly become my fault when, in reality, ikaw naman talaga ang may kasalanan sa lahat?”